From End to Beginning

I am within the last week of my summer break. I find it funny that summer supposedly ends when people go to school and such, when it really ends on the autumn equinox, the beginning of autumn. And with that beginning, I too start a very important time in my life, one that will be a grand four-year experience, God willing. And to that I say it's about time. Many of my friends have already begun their ventures into college life, while I waste away at home online or playing classic Sonic games. It's not to say that my summer was uneventful. So many things have happened in the last few months that I will most certainly not forget e.g. the fire, my cousin's death experience, my other cousin's car accident, my mom's tantrum and most recently, my sister's car accident. But there was some good times too, whether it be going out with Rosalia, breaking a butt-cheek at City Walk, hanging with the family, or just reliving my childhood with Sonic the Hedgehog. And the new LCD!!! Damn! :)

This summer also let me get to know myself a little better. I might not be the most sincere or most kind-hearted person, but I am one to depend on when shit hits the fan. And it took for an actual fan and lamp thrown at me to realize that. I defend those I love when in the most harsh predicaments, and I'm glad I have people to tell me I can be strong for them, when sometimes I'm nothing but talk. Kinda gives me confidence that I can be strong in any situation. I think I'm growing up.

However, with this maturity, some things must be sacrificed. With the damn Benoit tragedy, steroid scandal, SuperCena, the Cake Giant Khali, and the stupidity that is TNA, I'm starting to lose my love for wrestling, an enjoyment I've had since elementary. Too much drama these days backstage that I can't take it. I miss the days of my youth where you knew who was the good guy and who was the bad guy, not whether who's the biggest douche in the locker room. Kinda sucks the fun out of it. Oh well, maybe it's energy best used elsewhere. Now, if Chris Jericho came back, I might be a little happy...

I miss a lot of my friends. This summer break was something of a withdrawl of these people. It's becauseI feel that high school is the one place I actually got to make real friends. I don't care if people hated high school, sucks for you because i didn't. Whether it be with the "smarties", in some of my more favorable classes, or with Decathlon, I had fun and I enjoyed myself. Sadly, all I can do is wish for the best for them and that hopefully are paths cross again. This life is so unpredictable. One minute I was just coasting through high school, the next a pretty girl asks you to join a team that you know about somewhat. As easy as that happen, it's as easy to leave this earth and those you love behind. Might sound pessimistic, but that's life. Shit happens; that's my motto. But shit might not happen, so I can go on living the good life and hang with these friends in the future, as well as those I have yet to meet.

I'm really excited about UCI. At first I was depressed that I failed to get into UCLA, when I felt I deserved it. But that's over with and I have embraced the uniqueness and beauty of the anteater. I have so many people to meet, one from San Francisco I randomly met online, and many more from just the building I'll be living in. Janet told me that God makes things happen for a reason, and I truly believe that. Maybe I'm going there a greater good. Who knows? Maybe I'm destined to meet my own "mamacita" over there (R.I.P. Eddie Guerrero). On a side note, I've seen lots of fine women at Irvine; wish me luck!!! The point is that I know UC Irvine will be a great experiece, and if not... shit happens. I shall return to LA and tell of the tales that I pick up along the school year, and hopefully my buddies will come back and will tell some of their own stories. And if some don't want anything to do with me anymore, that's fine too, but fuck them!!!

I think that'll do for know. The next time I write I'll be at Irvine. Hopefully I'll have time to do so. So this is Fernando "Emit Remmus" Garcia telling you that summer time has come to an end, but a new day is beginning. Good night and god bless...